Kelsey Parker has spoken candidly about how “difficult” she found her first Christmas without her late husband Tom.
The 32-year-old mother of two opened up about how she felt ‘alone’ over the festive period following the death of The Wanted star in March at the age of 33 after a year-and-a-half battle against stage four glioblastoma of the brain. cancer.
She took to her Instagram Stories on Thursday to share a video reflecting on her first Christmas without Tom, saying her emotions “came in in waves.”
Hard times: Kelsey Parker has spoken candidly about how “difficult” she found her first Christmas without her late husband Tom
She explained: ‘I survived Christmas. Don’t get me wrong, it was harder than I expected. Christmas was very hard for me.
“Emotions came in waves, one minute I was happy, one minute I was sad, one minute I was angry, but I am here and I have survived it. We are in January and it is new year.
“You know what? I was talking to my friend earlier and I said, the only way to describe the waves and the feelings you get, like I did this morning, when I think of Tom, I have this wave, and it’s almost like you lose a game. of keys.
‘When you lose a set of keys, you get that first ‘where are my keys?’ feeling. It’s almost like that and you think ‘where is he?’, then I have to calm down and say ‘he’s not coming back’.
Loss: The 32-year-old mother of two has opened up about how she felt ‘alone’ over the festive period following the death of The Wanted star in March last year at the age of 33 after a battle with brain cancer.
Kelsey, who shared children Aurelia, three, and Bodhi, two, with Tom, went on to talk about how her eldest is “her father’s daughter.”
She continued: ‘Aurelia made me get up four or five times last night. It is as if she had a newborn again. She still hasn’t gone back to kindergarten, she’s going back next week, well, to preschool.
“With her, she just needs to be moving and doing things and with her activities not behind her, she really is her father’s daughter and I don’t think she’s stimulated enough and at night she’s like ‘hey mom let’s have a party’.” ‘.’
Kelsey then thanked her 394,000 followers for getting her through the Christmas period, saying she “wouldn’t” have been able to do it without their support.
Christmas: She took to her Instagram Stories on Thursday to share a video in which she reflected on her first Christmas without Tom, saying her emotions “came in waves” amid her grief.
She added: ‘I just wanted to also say that I wouldn’t be able to get through any of this if it wasn’t for you guys.
‘Your DMs, your messages, everything, I can’t reply to all of you, but you’ve honestly been the biggest support in getting me through this period.
“I didn’t realize how hard the Christmas period was going to be and how lonely and sad it is. But luckily I have a town, I have a team, I have my family and my friends, who are incredible.
Her latest comments come after she shared a candid post about living in pain on New Year’s Day along with a snap of her in a sparkly jumpsuit.
Family: Kelsey, who shared children Aurelia, three, and Bodhi, two, with Tom, went on to talk about how her eldest is “her father’s daughter”
Expressing her mixed emotions about leaving 2022 behind, Kelsey wrote: “It’s hard to move forward without looking back.”
As she looked forward to the New Year, Kelsey said it was hard not to reflect on her loss and the heartbreaking pain that accompanied it.
However, she said she’s staying positive with the help of her and Tom’s two children, commenting that they’re learning to grow around their grief, with Kelsey adding a diagram to demonstrate the sentiment.
On reflection: Her latest comments came after she shared a candid post about living in pain on New Year’s Day along with a snap of her in a sparkly jumpsuit.
Difficulties: Expressing her mixed emotions about leaving 2022 behind, Kelsey wrote, “It’s hard to move forward without looking back.”
She wrote: ‘Hello 2023. I wonder what you have in store for us? To be honest, I’m not quite sure how I feel about the new year.
I want to hope, to look forward, but it’s hard to move forward without looking back.
“I know whatever it brings, with Rae and Bo by my side, the year will be filled with smiles, fun, and positivity.” We will continue as we were in 2022, living with our pain and growing around it.
“I’m looking forward to sharing it all with you and however you left 2022, I wish you love and happiness for 2023.”
Grief: As she waited in the New Year, Kelsey (pictured with Tom in 2016) said it was hard not to reflect on her loss and the heartbreaking pain that came with it