Michigan State University shooting survivor shares heartbreaking journal entry about tragedy

A survivor of the Michigan State University shooting has shared a heartbreaking journal entry about how he was caught up in the tragedy.

Marcy Creevy posted a clip on TikTok to read the harrowing excerpt about her experience on the MSU campus earlier this month.

The 19-year-old student made it clear that she was not sharing the idea “out of sympathy” but rather did not want to “let evil win.”

Gunman Anthony McRae killed three people and wounded five more on February 13 before fatally shooting himself after an hour-long chase at the university.

The student made it clear that she was not sharing the idea “out of sympathy” but rather did not want to “let evil win.”

In the TikTok video, which has been viewed more than 5.3 million times so far, Marcy sits alone in her bedroom wearing an MSU sweater.

She talks to the camera and begins: “I’m really not sure how to start this video, I really don’t know what to say, but I wanted to get in here and use the platform that I have.”

The student then takes out her journal in which she documented the events that occurred on campus on February 13.

Marcy shares: “I’m not looking for sympathy or anything, I’m just trying to share my story about what I went through because the sad truth is that maybe I could educate or help someone in the future if we have to go through what we had what to spend that night

Opening the journal, he reads how he had been studying on the second floor of the Union building at the university around 8 p.m.

She reads: ’20 minutes later the room I was in was lit up with red and blue lights. I looked out the window thinking maybe it was just a minor accident. I went back to my study area, grabbed my phone, and saw a text from my best friend Hailey saying “don’t go out.”

“I went back to the window and looked down to see police officers on the lawn with their rifles pointed at the building I was in.”

Marcy continues: “I heard a woman yell ‘trigger’ and run down the hall. You know when you can hear the fear in someone’s voice: it was like that, screaming fucking murder…

The 19-year-old shared excerpts from her diary in which she documented the events that occurred on the MSU campus on February 13.

Opening the journal, he reads how he had been studying on the second floor of the Union building at the university around 8 p.m.

“From there, my fight or flight began. I still can’t fathom how my body knew exactly what to do while all my heart wanted to do was cry and scream and break.”

I turned off the lights, ran into the other room, closed the doors, and turned off those lights.

“Four others appeared from the other room and that’s when I told everyone to get behind the wall and under the table.”

Marcy said she immediately thought of her family. She pulled the phone from her, wanting to call her mom to ‘hear her voice’ from her, but she said she didn’t want to make noise.

The young woman begins to get emotional when she reveals: “I was completely frozen, I felt empty, I was not afraid, nothing.”

She said she comforted the others in the room, repeatedly telling them ‘we’re going to be okay, I promise, please trust me.’

Marcy, who begins to fight back tears in the video, perseveres: “I realized I had to do something. I checked my phone to see the first text from my dad saying ‘be smart, always give yourself a chance.’

She said she then started blocking the doors. ‘I stood up… ran to the doors of the room and began to push a table. At that moment I heard a man’s deep voice yelling from the hallway: the shooter.

The student tried to keep his senses: ‘I sat quietly thinking about what I was going to do when the shooter came in. My first thought was that I would play dead, this is what my mom always taught me.

Marcy’s voice faltered and her eyes filled with tears before she apologized and temporarily cut off the camera.

In her video, Marcy concluded: “The last 12 pages have encapsulated my story, but the last 12 pages will never encapsulate the emotions behind it.”

She said the group eventually took refuge in a restaurant across the street where Marcy called her parents and stayed on the phone with them for the next hour.

Marcy posted the video along with a caption that read: “Everyone has a story, this is just a part of mine and it’s okay to wear your emotions on your sleeve.”

“But then I thought to myself that I would actually have to shoot someone first if I could play dead.”

Marcy’s voice shakes and her eyes fill with tears before she apologizes and temporarily turns off the camera.

She returns and reads: “Knowing myself and how I deal with violence, I was going to defend myself as hard as I could; my mother would have hated me for that, for defending myself and fighting back instead of thinking extremely tactically.”

Marcy continues: ‘At that point the doors started banging. “Nobody move,” I told him. We all assumed it was the cops coming to get us, but from the stories I heard and watched, I wasn’t going to move or speak until I physically saw a cop in front of us.

‘Lanterns appeared on the wall in front of us. A man turned the corner and his flashlight hit us in the face. [He said]: “I have children, I have some, I have seven.”

‘Another policeman appeared around the corner…he was stern but he was scared, he just knew.’

Speaking about finally seeing the police officers, he said: ‘That’s when I got lost. It was as if she had been holding her breath for the last 22 minutes. As if she wasn’t taking anything in. And when I raised my hands above my head, I was finally able to breathe again.

Marcy said the group was escorted by armed police who were lined up on the stairs, but when they got outside, the students just ran.

She said the group eventually took refuge in a restaurant across the street where Marcy called her parents and stayed on the phone with them for the next hour.

Anthony McRae, 43, opened fire at Berkeley Hall before shooting at MSU Union, killing three students and leaving four students in critical condition.

Police walk through Berkey Hall after the shooting on the Michigan State campus in East Lansing, Michigan.

Marcy concluded: ‘The last 12 pages have summed up my story, but the last 12 pages will never sum up the emotions behind it.

“And that’s okay because there are six others who were physically there with me and thousands of people whose lives will be forever changed, but we’re all still there, all together.”

‘I will not let an evil person take the place I call home. I will never let evil win.

He posted the video along with a caption that read: “Everyone has a story, this is just a part of mine.” And it’s okay to wear your emotions on your sleeve.

During the shooting at MSU, gunman Anthony McRae, 45, he entered an academic building called Berkey Hall at 8:18 p.m. and fired indiscriminately at the occupants.

Two people died on the spot and three others suffered serious injuries.

Police descended in response to a stream of urgent 911 calls, but the killer had already left the premises, headed west of the building and prowled the campus streets as he searched for his next victims.

Less than 15 minutes later, shots were reported at the MSU Union building, a popular place for students to eat, drink and study just a 10-minute walk from Berkey Hall.

One more person was killed at MSU Union and two more were injured.

McRae terrorized the campus for a total of nearly four hours, but committed suicide before the police could reach him.

Two of McRae’s victims have been named as Alexandria Verner and Brian Fraser. The family of the third victim has requested that her name not be published.