Victoria Beckham admits she ‘resented’ husband David and was the ‘unhappiest she’d ever been’ after  affair allegations turned their children’s lives into a ‘circus’

Victoria Beckham has admitted she hated her husband after he turned their lives into a ‘circus’.

After David Beckham moved to Spain to play for Real Madrid, the footballer was hit by claims that he had an affair with his personal assistant Rebecca Loos.

Victoria and their children Brooklyn and Romeo then moved from Britain to be by David’s side, where the family was under intense scrutiny, with the Spanish media hounding them and fans invading their lives.

Speaking about the experience of David’s new Netflix docuseries BECKHAM, Victoria confessed: ‘Do I hate David? If I’m completely honest: yes, I did.’

The show then cut to footage of the famous couple driving through Spain with their distressed son Brooklyn, who cried as overzealous fans banged on the window of their car.

Allegations: After David Beckham moved to Spain to play for Real Madrid, the footballer was hit with claims that he had an affair with his personal assistant Rebecca Loos

David tried to comfort Brooklyn by announcing “it’s okay, Buster, they can’t get in the car,” while Victoria calmed him down by saying, “it’s okay, mommy’s got you.”

Victoria candidly admitted, “If I’m honest, this is probably the most unhappy I’ve ever been in my entire life.

‘It wasn’t that I wasn’t heard. I chose to internalize a lot of it because I always took into account the focus he needed.”

David also suffered, with his on-pitch performances coming under scrutiny and Real Madrid losing Four games in a row for the first time.

Earlier in the fourth and final episode of the docuseries, Victoria spoke for the first time about the pain she suffered in the wake of the claims about her husband David’s alleged affair.

Nearly two decades after it was claimed he and the personal assistant had bonded while he was playing for Real Madrid in Spain, Victoria revealed the months that followed were the ‘hardest’ of her life and she no longer felt like it couple ‘had each other’.

Meanwhile, David admitted he still doesn’t know how they got through the 2003 crisis, but he and his former Spice Girl wife knew they had to ‘fight for their family’, saying they felt like they were ‘drowning’ when their high- The profile wedding was in the news for months.

The former England captain also told how he felt ‘physically ill every day’ as he and Victoria battled to save their marriage.

Scary: The show then cut to footage of the famous couple driving through Spain with their distressed son Brooklyn, who cried as overzealous fans banged on their car

Shocking: David stunned the world when his alleged relationship with Rebecca was revealed in the now defunct newspaper News Of The World (Rebecca Loos pictured in 2004)

In a stunningly honest interview in the fourth and final episode, Victoria appeared to fight back tears when asked if this was the hardest time in their marriage. “100 percent,” she admitted. ‘It was the most difficult period for us. Because it felt like the world was against us.

“The thing is, we were against each other, if I’m completely honest. Until Madrid it sometimes felt like we were against everyone, but we were together, we were connected, we had each other. But when we were in Spain, it didn’t really feel like we had each other. And that’s sad. I can’t even tell you how hard it was. And how it influenced me.’

David stunned the world when his alleged relationship with Rebecca was revealed in the now defunct News Of The World newspaper. At the time, Victoria had decided to stay in Britain so that her young sons Brooklyn and Romeo could remain in their schools. The decision left David lonely, and he admits he struggled.

He said: “When I first moved to Spain it was difficult because I was part of a club and a family for my entire career, from the age of 15 to the age of 27. I’m sold overnight, the next minute I’m in a city, I don’t speak the language. More importantly, I didn’t have my family.

“Every time we woke up, we felt like something was different… we both felt at the time that we weren’t losing each other, we were drowning.”

When asked how their marriage survived, David shared that he was afraid of football while his wife struggled to find a way out of their crisis.

Shaking his head, he said, “I honestly don’t know how we got through it. Victoria is everything to me, to see her pain was incredibly difficult, but we are fighters and at that time we had to fight for each other, we had to fight for our family.

“And what we had was worth fighting for. There were days when I woke up and thought, ‘How am I going to get to work? How do I walk onto that training field? How am I going to look like nothing’s wrong?’ I felt physically sick every day when I opened my eyes, ‘How am I going to do this?’

The crisis prompted Victoria to move to Madrid, where they bought a £3 million house that she says she decorated herself. She later had the couple’s third son, Cruz, now 18, in the Spanish capital.

Victoria described their time in Madrid as a ‘nightmare’ and ‘an absolute circus’, while David said the school run was ‘live on Spanish TV’.