Vicky Pattison admits she feels ‘depressed’ and ‘anxious’ – just hours before her wedding to Ercan Ramadan
Vicky Pattison admitted on Instagram on Friday that she was feeling “depressed” and “anxious” just hours before her wedding to Ercan Ramadan.
The 36-year-old reality star is set to marry former construction worker and now celebrity Ercan (30) this weekend at Marylebone Town Hall.
But Vicky opened up about how her premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PDD), where women experience more severe symptoms of premenstrual dysfunction (PMS), is affecting the lead-up to her special day.
She shared photos of herself in her underwear, looking bloated, as well as heartbreaking selfies of herself crying.
Vicky wrote a lengthy caption with her post, which began, “PMDD and life’s big moments..”
Vicky Pattison, 36, admitted on Instagram on Friday that she was feeling “depressed” and “anxious” – just hours before her wedding to Ercan Ramadan, 30
The reality star will marry former construction worker Ercan (pictured at Vicky’s hen party in early August) at Marylebone Town Hall this weekend
Vicky shared how her premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PDD), which gives women more severe symptoms of premenstrual disorder (PMS), impacted the lead-up to her special day
She continued, “This isn’t going to make sense to a lot of people, it might seem dramatic to some, and if this doesn’t resonate with you at all, that’s okay… you can keep scrolling. Because this post isn’t for everyone.
‘One in 20 women suffer from PMDD. However, the true figure is likely to be much higher because women are misdiagnosed, ignored and manipulated into thinking they are hysterical.
So if you’re in that group of 20, or if you find yourself not in that luteal phase before your period for a week to 10 days each month, this post is for you.
‘Believe me, the week before my wedding, I didn’t want to be this person at all… Imagine being excited and happy, having little birds pull your dress on for you… Instead, I was depressed, anxious and self-critical, full of feminine rage, hopelessness and exhaustion.
That’s what PMDD does.
‘PMDD is like building a sandcastle of good habits, positive moods and a loving personality and then watching it all get swept away, leaving behind depression, anger, hope and fear. The wave recedes. You start to rebuild, just as a new wave comes crashing down.
‘And you know what’s REALLY annoying? Just like your period ALWAYS seems to be off when you go on holiday… that heavy PMDD week is always a week where you have something important to do, something where you could actually be your bright, shiny, BRILLIANT self… instead of this anxious, suicidal little shell of a woman
‘We have no control over when that wave spreads.
She shared photos of herself in her underwear, looking bloated, as well as heartbreaking selfies of herself crying.
Vicky wrote in the caption: ‘PMDD and the important moments in life.. This is going to make no sense to a lot of people.. if this doesn’t resonate with you at all, that’s okay.’
Vicky wrote: ‘Trust me, the week before my wedding I did not want to be this person… I was depressed, anxious and self-critical’
Vicky explained to her 5.5 million followers what it’s like to live with PMDD
Vicky added in the comments section that although her hormones will affect her personality, she will still enjoy her wedding day
‘I’ve had messages from women who say PMDD has robbed them of so many things. It shows up at birthdays, graduations, job interviews. It’s stopped them from being the mothers they wanted to be, it’s put a strain on relationships, it’s stolen moments that should have been happy.
‘I wish there was a super happy ending to this post, that I could end it with the words ‘but I found this pill and now I feel amazing’, but there isn’t. Instead, I’m just saying to everyone out there who is suffering: I see you, I get it, and I’m sorry.
But you know, as powerful as those thoughts and hormones can be…
Vicky continued in the comments: ‘But you know what, as powerful as those emotions and hormones can be.. I’m adamant that they’re not going to take this moment away from me. I might be a slightly more excitable bride than I planned.. thinking less Cinderella and more Ursula the Sea Witch.. but so what?!
‘That floating old hag deserves her too! I mean, maybe she was just misunderstood
‘MAYBE SHE HAD PMDD??? (That would REALLY explain a LOT!) What has helped me immensely on this journey is that my friends and family understand and know what I’m going through.
‘So if you’re struggling with PMDD and you’re afraid of the person it makes you, you’re afraid that people won’t understand you. Help them understand. Explain what you’re feeling, how scary it is.
“And even if those important moments don’t go exactly as you imagined or wanted… with people by your side, who love you, support you and try to understand you… things are just a little bit easier. Love you all.”
Vicky will tie the knot in front of 150 friends and family, before flying to Puglia for another lavish ceremony which will be broadcast on Vicky Pattison: Destination Wedding
Vicky will tie the knot in front of 150 friends and family before flying to Puglia for a lavish ceremony, which will air on Channel 4 in the new show Vicky Pattison: Destination Wedding.
The I’m A Celeb winner, who was crowned Queen of the Jungle in 2015, will cut short her Italian honeymoon to begin filming a brand new dating show.
Vicky and her boyfriend Ercan, 30, join a long list of celebrities who have tied the knot at The Old Marylebone Town Hall.
Dubbed the ‘Rock & Roll Wedding’, Sir Paul McCartney and Nancy Shevell, Liam Gallagher and Nicole Appleton, and Antonia Banderas and Melanie Griffith have all tied the knot in these luxurious surroundings.