Stormy Daniels reveals in Daily Mail podcast she wanted to ‘kill’ neighborhood ‘predator’ who abused her when she was nine… and how horses saved her life

Stormy Daniels has described how she was sexually abused when she was just nine, and her love of horses was how she survived a tumultuous childhood.

Daniels talks about her early years in the first episode of Daily Mail is all I know about me: Stormy Danielswhich was released on Tuesday.

The adult actress At the center of Donald Trump’s historic hush money trial, it emerges that she wanted to go back and “kill” her abuser, but he was already dead.

She spent most of her childhood in a small house in Baton Rouge, Louisianawhich fell into disrepair after her father left.

Daniels, whose real name is Stephanie Clifford, said she had always felt sympathy for her father because he “made it very clear that he didn’t want children.”

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Donald Trump’s former lover said she was often asked why she wasn’t angrier that her father left the family.

“But when a woman is dishonest, that power is kind of taken away,” she explained. ‘And he never wanted children.

“So it’s really hard to be angry at a man who didn’t have that choice, which sounds very different from what we’re used to hearing that women are the ones who should have the voice and the choice and whatever. , but yes, I think men should do that too – and he didn’t.’

Her father remarried and divorced – but when he was with wife No. 2 Susan, she made sure Daniels stayed in his life – and took up horse riding for the first time.

“My stepmother was very excited to teach me about horses and show me horses,” Daniels said. “She bought me my first pair of riding boots.”

“It was nice to get away and have a clean place to sleep at least twice a year,” Daniels added.

Later, as a teenager, Daniels spent $500 in Christmas money given to her by her stepfather to buy a sick horse named Jade.

Daniels said riding and caring for Jade was how she kept herself out of trouble during her high school years.

Daniels recalled that there would be no food in the house and her mother would disappear for days.

“And I didn’t want to eat,” the adult actress recalled.

She explained that as an adult, if she gets even a little hungry, “I panic.”

“I can’t stand being hungry,” she noted. “It’s such a trigger for me.”

Daniels claims her mother’s act of disappearing would leave her vulnerable to predators.

Her best friend, whom she calls “Vanessa” in her memoir and in this interview, was sexually abused by her neighbor when Daniels was about nine years old.

Daniels reveals her abuser’s name in the podcast – and told her not to reveal his name in her tell-all book.

“He’s dead now, by the way, because I went back later to kill him,” she said. “And he already was, he was already dead.”

“Although it really shouldn’t matter because I know there is a police report,” she continued, adding that the omission “made me very angry.”

Daniels said that once she learned of the abuse, she “started putting myself between him and her” — meaning she was also exposed to the abuse.

She remembered in the podcast interview how Vanessa was believed, but Daniels was not, when she admitted what happened to Burnett.

In the interviewDaniels recalls wanting to rekindle her relationship with her mother when she was pregnant with her own daughter.

‘And I will tell you that as soon as my daughter was born, every time out of forgiveness, sympathy, empathy – maybe I’m too harsh – [for] My mom went out the window and I stopped talking to her at all,” Daniels recalled.

“I haven’t accepted a text, a phone call, a message, an email, nothing since the day my daughter was born,” she continued.

The reason – she said – is that once her daughter was born, “I couldn’t imagine how she could have done those things to me.”

In the seriesDaniels also explains the lid on the historic trial in New York, and her frustrations with the many misconceptions that resulted.

In the in-depth performancethe 45-year-old will discuss the night in a hotel room 18 years ago where she claimed to have had sex with the former president.

She will describe her difficult childhood, controversial career, love of horses and testimony in the Manhattan trial that received worldwide attention.

Daniels was the center of a global spectacle when she told a jury how she was paid $130,000 to keep quiet about her claims that she was dating Trump.

She testified about how she met the now 77-year-old presumptive Republican nominee for president at a celebrity golf tournament in 2006.

She had been hired to work the event when she was introduced to Trump, then a reality TV star and real estate developer who had not yet set his sights on politics.

He was a newlywed — he had married Melania a year earlier — and was preparing to become a father for the fifth time with son Barron on the way.

The court heard Stormy was invited to dinner in his penthouse suite. She says he opened the door in his pajamas and the pair had a chat.

When she went to the toilet, she came back and found him in his underwear.

What happened next has been a source of speculation ever since. Trump has denied ever meeting Daniels and critics have insisted she is lying.

She claims they slept together, but says she blocked out the memory.

Now Daniels is trying to set the record straight with her side of the story, and a raw retelling of how she became one of the most divisive figures in the US.

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