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Rylan Clark has sadly revealed that he planned to commit suicide while staying in a mental hospital so his mother Linda wouldn’t find his body.
The TV star, 33, has shared in his new book how he “hoped he would get a chance to finish it” after being taken to the facility by his family when he suffered a mental breakdown following his marital divorce. from now ex. -husband DanNeal.
Excerpted from Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future published by The sunRylan also recounted the “hell” of his hospital stay and how a belt from his dressing gown was thrown out of his luggage when he got there.
Difficult: Rylan Clark has sadly revealed that he planned to commit suicide while staying in a mental hospital so his mother Linda wouldn’t find his body
He also described meeting fellow presenters Eamonn Holmes and Ruth Langsford as he recovered from the slump – saying he’d never seen Eamonn look so upset after seeing how ‘very sick’ Rylan actually was.
Of the time leading up to his hospitalization, he said, “I had to leave, I put my mother down and told her I had to be locked up.
“I said, ‘I can’t take it anymore’, I saw in her eyes that she couldn’t believe what was happening to her baby.
“As I got in the car with my brother to go to the hospital, all I could think was, ‘I hope I get the chance to finish it there.’ That way my mother wouldn’t be the person to find me, that was the only thought that crossed my mind.’
Difficult: The TV star, 33, has shared in his new book how he “hoped he would get a chance to finish it” after being taken to the facility by his family when he suffered a mental breakdown after his marital breakdown divorce from now on ex-husband Dan Neal (pictured with mom Linda)
Earlier this week, it was revealed that Rylan felt he “couldn’t move on” after his ex-husband Dan left him when Rylan told him he cheated on him.
Rylan revealed that he had been unfaithful to his now former partner ‘years ago’, but that when he was released in May 2011, Dan told him their relationship was over and had moved out of the house after six years together.
Describing the time after the breakup, Rylan said in the newly published excerpt that he became “severely unwell and could no longer eat, sleep and talk” and that he felt “having a stroke or worse.”
He shared how he “couldn’t bear” living in the house he shared with Dan, so he moved in with his mother, where he sat in the front room for days without talking with the blinds closed.
Complicated: Earlier this week, it was revealed that Rylan felt he “couldn’t go on” after his ex-husband Dan left him when Rylan told him he cheated on him
Rylan explained how he would go to sleep and “pray he wouldn’t wake up” and that he couldn’t speak without his words soothing.
After Linda realized she had to get him to get help, Rylan recounted his experience of a week in the hospital, saying that when he arrived he was taken to a white, cell-like room where everything had smooth, edge-less furniture.
In the excerpt, Rylan also discussed Eamonn and Ruth coming to see him and remembered their shocked faces when they saw how unwell he was.
Ex: After the breakdown of his six-year marriage, the TV favorite took five months out of the spotlight due to his deteriorating health (pictured with Dan in 2017)
The star shared how it was a ‘wake-up call’ for him after seeing their reaction and that he had never seen Eamonn ‘get so upset’.
He also shared how after returning from the hospital he started drinking excessively to cope and got drunk one night and messaged his ex.
Rylan described how they sporadically messaged and met for weeks and decided to give their relationship another chance, with Dan moving in again.
But after another argument, Dan has left for good and Rylan has claimed they haven’t spoken since.
It comes after Rylan revealed he was rushed to hospital twice last year after his ‘heart stopped’.
Support: He also described meeting fellow presenters Eamonn Holmes and Ruth Langsford as he recovered from the slump – saying he’d never seen Eamonn look so upset after seeing how ‘very sick’ Rylan actually was
The star shared how the terrifying ordeal happened during the split from husband Dan, 43.
At the launch of his new book this week, he said, “Not only did I get mentally ill, I got physically ill.”
After the breakdown of his six-year marriage, the television favorite took five months out of the spotlight due to his deteriorating health.
He previously claimed to have fallen to just nine stones, leading to him being hospitalized for “security reasons” after refusing food.
She told the audience at the Royal Festival Hall in London: ‘Last year I ended up in the back of an ambulance twice because my heart gave out.’
After being admitted to the hospital, he received an injection that caused his heart to beat more regularly.
He explained: ‘I just remember the shot that came in and suddenly this feeling from the center of your body, both sides, almost took over you, and you just stopped and my heart stopped’.
“There are only seven faces and this bright light just stares at me. And then I took a breath. And they said, “He’s in a normal rhythm.”
“I was like, ‘What the f**k is going on?'”
He went on to say that relatives were convinced he was just heartbroken, but he was sure it was more serious.
Low point: In his new book, he wrote about his mental breakdown after the split: ‘For the first time in my 32 years I felt I could go no further’
“I knew it wasn’t right. It turned out that my heart needed to be restarted. I remember I was in rhesus and I had all these pads on with all these wires and didn’t understand what it was’.
He continued: “Only after that did I say, ‘What were the pads for?’ And they said, ‘If you hadn’t caught your breath… because we should have restarted you electrically. You don’t even think about it when you get there. So I didn’t just get mentally ill, I got physically ill.’
It came after Rylan revealed that his body was “locked off” and that his mother Linda was convinced he was having a stroke during his health problems.
The presenter admitted he couldn’t even speak and had “slurred” speech while taking time off from work.
Caring mum: It comes after Rylan revealed his body was ‘locked off’ and his mum Linda (pictured) was convinced he had a stroke during his health struggles
Appearing on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast, the TV personality said, “My body has completely stopped. I wouldn’t eat. I went through a phase where I couldn’t even speak, which could be quite helpful for some people.
“My speech was just slurred. My mother thought I was having a stroke. My body just went. I went to the 9th and I’m six feet tall.’
He is an avid Eurovision fan and has been a semi-final commentator since 2018, but his notable absence from the 2021 match raised red flags among friends.
Rylan continued: ‘Two days before I would go to the Eurovision Song Contest, everyone knew that something was wrong if I was not at the Eurovision Song Contest.
“If I had done it, I might not have lost weight so quickly. And when I say quick drop, it felt like minutes. I felt like I’d had the shot and that I stopped.’
The former Celebrity Big Brother roommate, who claims he hadn’t stopped working since his 2012 stint on The X Factor, confessed that he needed a break.
He said: ‘It was difficult, but on reflection, yes, I had to stop. Maybe it was a 10 year amalgamation. I haven’t stopped since the day I went to The X Factor.
‘Nothing stopped. I don’t regret stopping. I feel like if I try to keep going, maybe I could have handled things better personally. I don’t regret quitting.’
If you have been affected by anything in this article and need help, please call the Samaritans at 116 123 or email jo@samaritans.org.
Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future by Rylan will be released in Seven Dials Hardback on September 29.
Sad ending: He previously claimed to have dropped to just nine stone, leading to him being hospitalized for ‘safety reasons’ after refusing food during Dan’s split (pictured in 2017)