Prince Harry used to watch videos of his mother Princess Diana to try and cry

Prince Harry candidly admitted that he used to watch videos of his late mother, Princess Diana, and “gather memories of her” in an attempt to grieve over her death.

The 38-year-old made the emotional admission during an explosive interview with CBS News’ 60 Minutes in which he revealed his “guilt” for not being able to shed a tear over Diana’s tragic death in 1997.

“There was a weight on my chest that I felt for so many years that I could never cry,” he told host Anderson Cooper.

“So I was constantly trying to find a way to cry, but… even sitting on my couch and going through all the memories I could muster about my mother.” And sometimes I would watch videos online.

However, Harry says that, as hard as he tried, he “couldn’t” shed a tear, something that filled him with “guilt” for years.

That guilt is something the duke wrestled with from the moment he and his brother William greeted members of the public who came to pay their respects to Diana on the day of her funeral, and Harry explained that he was stunned by the amount of people. people were crying over the death of their mother.

‘I remember the guilt I felt,’ he said of that moment, adding: ‘The fact that the people we were meeting showed more emotion than [William and I] they were showing, perhaps more emotion than we felt.

‘There were many tears. I’m talking about how wet people’s hands were. And I couldn’t understand it at first.

‘Her hands were wet from wiping away her own tears. I remember one of the weirdest parts was taking flowers from people and then placing those flowers with the rest of them. As if I were some kind of go-between for her pain. And that really stood out to me.

Harry struggled with his grief for years, and says it wasn’t until he began therapy and experimented with psychedelics that he truly accepted his mother’s death.

The Duke of Sussex told Cooper that psychedelics such as ayahuasca and magic mushrooms were his “medicine” after the great “loss” of his mother in 1997, saying that using psychedelics when he got older “finally killed the idea.” “. that he needed to be sad to prove that he ‘missed’ his mom.

“I would never advise people to do this recreationally,” he said during the hour-long tell-all interview.

“But doing it with the right people if you’re dealing with a great deal of loss or grief or trauma, then these things have a way of working as medicine.

‘For me, they cleaned the windshield, the windshield, the misery of loss. They took away that idea that I had in my head that… I needed to cry to show my mother that I missed her. When in reality, all she wanted was for me to be happy.

Harry explained during the meeting that he believes he did not grieve over Diana’s death because he had “refused to accept that she was gone”.

Tonight’s interview with 60 Minutes aired just over an hour after another television interview between Harry and British journalist Tom Bradby premiered in the UK.

In that interview, the Duke also spoke about his struggle to show emotion over his mother’s death, telling Bradby: “Everybody thought and felt like they knew our mother, and the two people closest to her, the two people closest to her, loved by her, they were incapable of showing any emotion at that time.

Everyone knows where they were and what they were doing the night my mother died.

Harry also says that he cried once after his mother died, at her funeral.

“I cried once, at the funeral, and you know I go into detail about how strange it was and how I actually felt some guilt, and I think William did too, walking outside Kensington Palace.”