Mel B reveals she may have taken her own life if she’d still been with her ex during Covid lockdown

Mel B revealed today how she felt “suffocated” at the thought that she could have spent the Covid lockdown with her ex-husband and admitted she may have killed herself.

Speaking at a fringe event at the Conservative Party conference in Birmingham, the Spice Girl told an audience how she “would have died” had she still been with her former husband during the pandemic.

The 47-year-old pop star is a patron of the charity Women’s Aid, which campaigns for victims of domestic violence.

Mel B finalized her divorce from TV producer Stephen Belafonte in 2017 after leaving what she described as an abusive relationship.

He strongly denies allegations that he physically and emotionally abused the singer during their 10-year marriage.

Mel B appeared at a panel event at the Tory conference this afternoon, describing how a promise to her dying father saw her finally leave her marriage.

She also admitted that she was afraid that talking about her experience would “ruin my career.”

“As a Spice Girl, I am the epitome of girl power,” she said. “And for ten years I was completely powerless against this man and the situation I found myself in.”

The 47-year-old pop star is a patron of the charity Women’s Aid, which campaigns on behalf of victims of domestic violence

The Spice Girl told an audience how she ‘would have died’ had she still been with her former husband during the pandemic

At one point during the Covid lockdown, Women’s Aid had 21,000 women waiting for their helpline.

Mel B shared her own feelings about the impact of the pandemic on those who suffer from domestic violence, saying: ‘I had this terrible feeling during the lockdown for women who were in abusive relationships.

‘I literally felt suffocated at the thought, if I had been with my ex then, I think I would have been dead.

“If it hadn’t been for me to kill myself or for him to kill me.

“Because that was literally lockdown, not just in my daily life, but I wouldn’t even be able to go out to work.”

Mel B revealed how she had undergone some form of hypnotherapy after leaving her relationship to talk about her experience.

“For months after I left that relationship, I would jump out of my skin if I slammed the door,” she added.

Mel B, who has appeared as a judge on a string of TV talent shows in recent years, received an MBE from Prince William earlier this year for her services to charities and vulnerable women.

She has also released a book entitled ‘Brutally Honest’ which details her relationship.

Mel B told the Tory conference audience how a conversation with her dying father gave her “the strength” to leave her marriage.

“As I said to him, ‘Don’t worry, Daddy, I’ll leave him,’ he breathed his last,” she said.

‘I thought, ‘Damn, that’s very hard what you just imposed on me now that I really have to leave’.

“So it took it out on me and did it for my dad, and that gave me the strength.”

But the singer – who shared how she once tried to commit suicide – admitted she was “lucky” and added: “I know so many other men and women didn’t make it out alive.

“You have thousands and thousands of women and men every day who go back to their abusers because they have children, they cannot survive financially.”

Mel B appeared on the panel with Farah Nazeer, head of Women’s Aid, as well as Protecting Secretary Mims Davies and Maggie Blyth, the first national police chief for violence against women and girls.

She put pressure on the government to improve the track record of judges and courts in handling domestic violence cases and the “traumatic” experiences survivors have to go through as they progress through the justice system.

“It’s a boys’ club,” she said of the “old-fashioned” case law and the Family Court.