Logan Steinwede’s grief-stricken father has opened up about the beloved surfer’s sudden death, admitting his son found life ‘very difficult’.
Mat Steinwede, 50, took to social media to remember his son who tragically died by suicide on Monday.
The newly turned 20-year-old stayed with his grandparents on Sunday before they found him the next morning, Logan’s uncle Dr Justin Coulson revealed.
Mr Steinwede, a top real estate agent, was seen wearing all black and was visibly emotional as he told viewers his son was “truly loved” in a video uploaded to Instagram and TikTok on Thursday.
The grief-stricken father opened up through tears in a video uploaded to social media on Thursday
“So this is a video that I definitely didn’t want to make, but I feel like I have to,” the distraught father began.
“So Logan…died this weekend. He committed suicide.’
Mr. Steinwede added that he didn’t want to just post a photo with a caption because it wasn’t his style, nor Logan’s.
“He’d probably want a quick short video, knowing him,” he said.
“It’s hard because he was really loved, you know, obviously by all of us.”
‘We just have to remember Loges as the funniest man, who just had the best smile. He was just the best and funniest person,” the emotional dad added.
Mr Steinwede said that although life must go on, he constantly wonders whether he could have done things differently, waking up in tears and going to sleep.
Mat Steinwede remembered his son as the ‘funniest man’ with the ‘best smile’
Mr Steinwede said the young surfer found life ‘difficult’ and turned to alcohol as he struggled to figure out what he wanted to do in life after graduating
‘Eventually things became tense; he wanted to live his life his own way, and that was hard to watch,” he admitted through tears.
The young surfer found life difficult and turned to alcohol as he struggled to figure out what he wanted to do in life after graduating.
‘He just didn’t fit into a box. He had a lot of energy, he loved things that were outdoors, that’s why surfing was such a focus and relief that he could do it his way.
“People say he’s happier now, but I think he could have been quite happy here.”
Mr Steinwede said he was always told there was a silver lining in everything that happened, but this time he saw none.
In stark words on social media, Loggan’s uncle Dr Coulson said: ‘My cousin passed away on Sunday evening. He died by suicide.” Logan is in the photo
Logan’s death is a reminder of the prevalent issue of young men not talking about how they feel, his heartbroken father said
“I wish I could have said I love you one more time,” he said.
He said the family will remember Logan by choosing their favorite photos of him and hanging them throughout the house.
Logan’s death is a reminder of the prevalent issue of young men not talking about how they feel, the heartbroken father said.
‘His older brother said if he had held on a little longer and let us know, we would all have done something. We would have done anything,” Mr Steinwede added.
“I have to turn this pain into purpose, and that’s no use, but our family is closer than ever.”
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