Kirk Norcross paid tribute to his late father on Sunday as he marked the third anniversary of his tragic death.
Mick Norcross was found dead in his home by son Kirk on January 21, 2021, after dying by suicide at the age of 57.
Kirk, 35, shared a montage of photos of the pair and reflected on their time together as he thanked his father for making him the “person I am today.”
Alongside the images, he shared: ‘3 years today You are at peace, your soul is at rest, but that won’t stop the tears. As I remember the special times we shared over the years.
‘You have taught me so many things and you have shown me the way. (sic)’
Kirk Norcross paid tribute to his late father Mick on Sunday as he marked the third anniversary of his tragic death by suicide
Kirk, 35, shared a montage of photos of the pair and reflected on their time together as he thanked his father for making him the “person I am today.”
Kirk continued, “You helped me overcome hard times. To be the person I am today.
Even though I’m not a child anymore. And you are gone, I will never let go of the memories, I will always hold them dear. (sic)’
Last year, Kirk revealed that he called a drug dealer shortly after finding his late father’s body.
TV star Kirk, 34, recalled how the traumatizing ordeal sent him into a ‘massive relapse’ back into his drug addiction, but is now proudly sober.
Speaking to Daniel O’Reilly, aka Dapper Laughs, Kirk said on his podcast ‘Menace to Sobriety’: ‘At the funeral I made sure I was sober.
“I’ll tell you how bad my addiction was: I was sober for months and months before my father died.
‘My father committed suicide and I found my father. From the moment I said goodbye to my father, that addiction immediately set in.
“I give him a hug and a kiss and say goodbye, run out of the house and call the drug dealer.”
‘That’s the only thing that could have stopped me from committing suicide. I had a major setback.
“You know what I don’t want anyone to commit suicide, but I respect my father’s decision for what he did; my father is very planned and calculated.
“It was weird because the day my dad died, I became a man, really. It sounds horrible, but this should have happened before I could become a man, but I’m angry that my father didn’t see me become the man I am today, but that’s because my father is gone, you know.’
Kirk shared: You helped me overcome difficult times. To be the person I am today. Even though I’m not a child anymore. And you’re gone, I’ll never let go of the memories (sic)’
As for Kirk getting emotional, Daniel says of his tears, “I honestly think they’re tears of joy for yourself.”
Kirk added, “Honestly, I’m so proud of myself, I’m so proud. I have a daughter and a son, unfortunately I don’t see my daughter, but hopefully she will come find me when she is older, I am ready to be a father to her always, and I have a son who is my world.
‘I moved from Essex, my son lives about an hour’s drive from Essex. I don’t know anyone I moved to, I moved to Norfolk, not where my son is, but about 15 minutes away from my son, just to be with him as much as possible.
‘What you leave behind is pure consternation and many questions. No one will ever get the answers to those questions because you aren’t there to answer them.
“If you tell people what you’re going through, they may not be able to help you, but they can hold your hand during that time.
“I understand why people want to commit suicide, and you know I’ve been trying since my father died, you know about myself, I don’t know if it was a failed attempt, but luckily I’m still here.
“There is help, and I know it’s damn hard, but there is help for someone to just be there and sit with you while you’re going through these bad things.
“The reason why I tried to do it this year is because I felt like I had no one, I was alone, I was alone in my house for days and days and there was no one there. I really thought no one would miss me if I go.
‘When I changed my life and got my new house, I realized that things were going well. I understand why people think about suicide, but I guarantee that when you broke up with your first girlfriend, you thought you would never find another girlfriend.
‘When you lost your first job, you never thought you would find another job. When you ran out of money, you thought you would never have money again. But we got it all back.”
Speaking about his father as the backbone of the family, Kirk said he “didn’t mind” that his addiction led to his death: “I knew my father’s presence was enough for the family.
“So when he was gone, I had to get up. From the moment he died, I went into a bit of a rage. It’s no excuse that I started working on it.’
The TV star is now an ambassador for the suicide charity Papyrus and speaks every day to people suffering like his father. He estimates he helps “10 to 20” a day.
Kirk has suffered from PTSD since finding his father’s body, but recently admitted: ‘In some ways I’m glad it was me who found him, but it will be seared in my memory for the rest of my life.
‘When I realized he had died, I lay down next to his body, kissed him on the head and said, ‘thank you for everything you did daddy and sorry for everything I did. I promise I’ll do my best.’ The moment he died, I became a man. I knew I had to try to make him proud.”
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Mick Norcross was found dead in his home by son Kirk on January 21, 2021 after dying by suicide at the age of 57 (pictured together in 2011)