Kesha gets real as she promotes her latest album, Gag Order, which came out on May 19th.
“I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the fear,” Kesha, 36, shared. Apple Music.
“It was pure fear. My brain felt like I thought maybe it was the process of a psychotic break or something.
“But once I started leaning into it, I thought, ‘Well, it happens, so what am I going to do about it?'” she added.
Host Zane Lowe asked the Eat the Acid singer if she was on an Ayahuasca trip when this happened. She clarified that she was sober at the time.
Anxiety: Kesha gets real while promoting her latest album, Gag Order, which came out on May 19
Crazy trip: “I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the fear,” Kesha, 36, told Apple Music
The TiK ToK singer has spoken about this experience before.
“I woke up in the morning and called all my health professionals and explained what happened, and they all said, ‘Oh that’s a spiritual awakening, congratulations,'” The protector reported.
“I was like, ‘What the hell are you talking about? You’re saying that what I’ve been doing therapy for, meditating on and looking for would have an incredibly surreal, terrifying, almost psychedelic experience?’ They were all like, “Yeah, that’s the goal.”‘
The Die Young singer also told Apple Music’s Lowe, “I’m a triple Pisces, I like weird, inexplicable, spiritual, supernatural things.
“It’s my rabbit hole I’m currently in, just the paranormal. And also other spirituality, with different things people believe in. I just try to read about it because I feel like we’re all talking about the same thing,” she added.
Kesha rose to fame in 2009 with the song TiK ToK, but along the way she ran into many hurdles, including a stint in rehab for an eating disorder and suing her producer Dr. Luke for sexual harassment and losses.
“I realized that, almost to the point of toxic positivity, I was really trying to amp up that playful side of my personality,” she said.
Lean into it: “It was pure fear. My brain felt like I thought maybe it was the process of a psychotic break or something
Sober: Host Zane Lowe asked the Eat the Acid singer if she was on an Ayahuasca trip when this happened. She clarified that she was sober at the time
She explained, “I was doing my whole being a disservice. As the woman who wrote TiK ToK and “the party doesn’t start until I walk in,” I didn’t think anyone needed or wanted that side of my psyche.”
“I also realized there’s an element of people gratification in just trying to give people what they want from me,” she concluded.
After her experience with Dr. Luke began working with legendary record producer Rick Rubin, who she says has given Kesha a more zen approach to her music.
“After ten years of feeling like I had become a caricature of myself in some ways, he said, ‘I really want to know what’s going on deep inside you,'” she said.
Spiritual: “I’m a triple Pisces, I like weird, unexplainable, spiritual, supernatural things,” she said
Rabbit hole: “It’s my rabbit hole I’m currently in, just the paranormal. And also other spirituality, with different things people believe in
“So he created this super cozy space where instead of thinking about what other people want, or what other people expect, or what’s going to make other people happy, it was about what really needs to be dug up from inside me.”
But it started off a bit rough.
“I came in every day and for about two hours I cried and he just created space,” she said.
“He never asked me to stop crying, or to sort it out. It only took me a minute to give voice to these really unpleasant, embarrassing emotions. I don’t want to be seen as weak or screwed up or unhappy, because generally in my life… I have all the emotions.”