I wanted a girl and I was upset to find out I was having twin boys
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A woman has revealed she was “upset and disappointed” when she found out she was having twins after having set her heart on one of each.
Ashely Cesare, 21, had always dreamed of having a girl and was expecting a boy and a girl when she found out she was expecting twins in August 2021.
The housewife, from New York, couldn’t hide her disappointment when only blue confetti fell. about her and her fiancé, Heath Boyle, 27, who works in construction, during her gender reveal.
Ashley was “scared” of raising boys, but she quickly overcame her fear and now admits she couldn’t imagine her 10-month-old twins, Carter and Jaxon, as girls.
Ashley Cesare with her twin children Carter and Jaxon. Ashley revealed that she was initially disappointed to learn that she was going to have children.
She said: ‘At the time I was anxious and the suspense was killing me.
“I knew inside that they were twins, so I was trying to prepare myself and forcing myself not to cry.”
‘When the confetti fell, I kicked my foot in disappointment. But the feeling only lasted for five or 10 minutes.’
However, he quickly got over the disappointment and thought ‘here we go’.
Ashley and her fiance, Heath Boyle, 27, at their gender reveal, where Ashley was initially upset that she wanted one of each: a girl and a boy.
The housewife says that now she would not be without her children and was only disappointed for five minutes.
She said: ‘I used to feel guilty because I didn’t want my children to feel unwanted. But now I realize that it was not that time was.
They were my natural emotions. Now she couldn’t imagine them being girls. I love my children more than anything and for me to want a girl is not bad.
When Ashley found out she was pregnant with twins in August 2021, she had pinned her hopes on one or both of them being girls.
As a ‘girly girl’, Ashley wanted a ‘mini me’, so when she and Heath found out they were having twins at their gender reveal in October 2021, she was shocked and unprepared.
When Ashley found out she was pregnant with twins in August 2021, she had pinned her hopes on one or both of them being girls.
Ashley said she wants to normalize that gender disappointment is a very real thing and has nothing to do with how much you’ll love your baby.
The 21-year-old said: ‘Heath didn’t care at all. But he was really scary to me.
I have all the girls on my side of the family. I didn’t think I’d be good at raising kids.
“But after five minutes or so I woke up and I was excited. I was just happy to be a mom.
‘It was a disappointment like you get when you get your order wrong at a fast food restaurant, but you still eat it.
Ashley said she feels guilty because she doesn’t want her two children to feel unwanted.
‘We should be able to have emotions.’
Ashley fell in love with her children when they were born at St. Peter’s Hospital, Albany, New York on March 25, 2022: Jaxon weighed in at 4lbs 11oz and Carter weighed in at 4lbs 8oz.
She said: ‘I felt like they were meant to be mine. They are both very attached to me.
First they said “mom”.
“Jaxon is clingy and Carter is more independent, but he still has his moments where all he wants is me.”
Ashley fell in love with her children when they were born at St. Peter’s Hospital, Albany, New York on March 25, 2022: Jaxon weighed in at 4lbs 11oz and Carter weighed in at 4lbs 8oz
Ashley and Heath want to complete their family with a third child, which they hope will be a girl.
Ashley said: ‘If we have another child, I might be disappointed. But I’ll still be happy and we’ll stop at three.
Ashley was worried about feeling ‘judged’ by her emotions around her gender disappointment, but she plans to show them the video of her reaction when they’re old enough.
Ashley said: ‘You can see I was disappointed, but you know I love you more than anything.
I guess they’ll laugh about it. I want you to understand that feelings are normal.