Britney Spears says she felt like a ‘child-robot’ under conservatorship because it robbed her of adult choices: ‘It was death to my creativity’

Britney Spears is sharing more details about how her years of living under conservatorship robbed her of her independence.

The 41-year-old pop star has admitted in a new excerpt from her upcoming memoir The Woman in Me that she felt like a “robot child” for a 13-year period after a judge reluctantly placed her on probation.

Her father, Jamie Spears, initially served as co-conservator after the arrangement began in 2008, with attorney Andrew Vallet working alongside him until 2019.

In the extract he came up with PeopleBritney wrote about how she felt “infantilized” by conservatism and the loss of independence that came with it.

‘I became a robot. But not just a robot – a kind of child-robot. I was so infantilized that I was losing parts of what made me feel like myself,” she wrote.

Maturity stolen: Britney Spears, 41, said her babysitting for 13 years ‘infantilized’ her and turned her into a ‘robot child’ by robbing her of a sense of agency, according to an excerpt from her memoir obtained by People; seen in 2016 in New York

Going Deep: Her Memoir The Woman Inside Me chronicles her career, her struggles to end her conservancy — which ended at the end of 2021 — and her 14-month marriage to Sam Asghari

The singer Tokic also wrote that her conservation work destroyed a large part of her creative talent.

“Conservatory took away my femininity, turned me into a child.” On stage, I became more of an entity than a personality,’ she continued. “I have always felt music in my bones and blood; they stole that from me.’

Britney described how she felt ‘like a shadow of herself’ after losing her independence, and went on to tell how she struggled with the rapid changes in her personality due to the psychological turmoil of conservatorship.

“This is what’s hard to explain, how quickly I could vacillate between being a little girl and being a teenager and being a woman, because of the way my freedom was taken away from me,” she explained. “There was no way for me to act like an adult, because I wouldn’t be treated like an adult, so I would regress and act like a little girl; but then my grown-up self would return — only my world wouldn’t let me be grown-up.’

She sounded particularly bitter as she described how her father and his conservator urged her to project a persona on stage, but then denied her that freedom when her concerts ended.

“The woman in me has been pushed down for a long time. They wanted me to be wild on stage, the way they told me to be, and be a robot the rest of the time,” Britney continued, adding that she couldn’t enjoy the extremes of life under her guardianship.

“I felt deprived of those good secrets of life — those cardinal supposed sins of indulgence and adventure that make us human,” she wrote. “They wanted to take that uniqueness away from them and make everything as memorable as possible.” It was the death of my creativity as an artist.’

He gets lost: ‘I have become a robot. But not just a robot – a kind of child-robot. I was so infantilized that I was losing parts of what made me feel like myself,” she wrote; seen in 2016 in San Jose, California.

Suspended Adolescence: She said that losing the ability to make adult decisions made her feel like a child; seen in Las Vegas in 2016

After years of being stuck under her supervision with no autonomy over her finances and vast wealth and very little control over her own body, Britney attempted to publicly fight back in June 2021.

Amid a surge of interest thanks to the Free Britney movement, which has campaigned on social media and through public protests to end her conservatorship, the singer shared her feelings about the conservatorship with a statement she read during a court hearing discussing the future of the arrangement.

After admitting she hadn’t attended a court hearing in years because she was afraid she wouldn’t be heard, Britney shared disturbing allegations about the conservatorship’s control over her body and romantic relationships.

She said she wanted to marry her then-boyfriend — and now estranged husband — Sam Asghari, but the conservatorship wouldn’t let her marry.

But the mother-of-two had also hoped to have another baby with Sam, but said the IUD she had at the time prevented her from doing so.

“I wanted to get the IUD out so I could start trying for another baby. But this so-called crew won’t let me go to the doctor to get it out because they don’t want me to have children — more children. So basically, this conservatorship is doing me more harm than good,” she said in one of her most shocking claims.

Elsewhere in her statement, she blasted her father Jamie for his high expectations of her ability to perform on stage and in rehearsals.

She spared no sympathy for him and told the judge she thought he — and anyone else who helped him maintain the conservatorship — “should be in jail.”

Back and forth: “They wanted me to be wild on stage, the way they told me to be, and be a robot the rest of the time,” Britney continued; seen in Vegas in 2016

Bodily Autonomy: In a 2021 court filing, Britney claimed that the guardianship would not allow her to marry her then-boyfriend Sam Asghari, and also forced her to keep an IUD that she wanted removed in order to have another child; seen in 2018 in Beverly Hills

The conservatorship began to unravel shortly after she read her statement, and Jamie was suspended from his position until September, with the arrangement ended all together by the judge overseeing him just two months later.

Since then, Britney has taken to social media to rave about her new freedom – much to the dismay of some fans and onlookers – and has managed to marry her long-term love Sam at her home in June 2022.

The marriage was short-lived, however, and it was reported that Britney and Sam split in August 2023, due to concerns over her mental health.

In her memoir, which has been updated at the last minute to update the sections featuring Sam in light of their impending divorce, Britney finally shares her conservatorship side in full detail.