‘I felt like my body was gaslighting me for years’: Billie Eilish reflects on ‘hating herself’ as a teenager and feeling ‘anger and hurt’ when she appears on the cover of Vogue’s first video
Billie Eilish has revealed that she struggled with body confidence issues as a teenager and “hated herself” as she tried to come to terms with her appearance.
The 21-year-old singer appeared on fashion magazineThe first video cover of her alongside a selection of climate activists as she details her relationship with the planet and herself.
Speaking of her struggle, when the party hitmaker revealed that she had to go through a process to learn to love herself, starting with accepting her physical appearance.
Struggles: Billie Eilish has revealed that she struggled with body confidence issues as a teenager and “hated herself” as she tried to come to terms with her appearance
Billie said: “Going through my teenage years hating myself and all that stupidity.” A lot of it came from my anger at my body, and how angry I was about the pain it caused me, and what I lost because of the things that happened to it…
“I felt like my body was gaslighting me for years. I had to go through a process of being like, my body is actually me. And it’s not to catch me.
In 2021, the singer admitted that she was still not happy with her appearance, saying The Guardian: ‘I see people online, looking like they never looked. And immediately I’m like, “OMG, how do they look like that?”
“I know the ins and outs of this industry, and what people actually wear in photos, and I know that what looks real can be fake.
“Yet I still look at it and go, oh God, that makes me feel so bad. And I mean, I’m very confident in who I am and I’m very happy with my life… Obviously I’m not happy with my body, but who is?’
Billie said: “Going through my teenage years hating myself and all that stupidity.” Much of it came from my anger towards my body’ (pictured in 2019 at age 17)
During her interview with Vogue, Billie went on to discuss the issues closest to her heart, detailing that today’s youth have inherited a more precarious future than previous generations.
Wearing a sustainable Balmain ensemble for the shoot, she explained that she’s careful about her approach to climate activism, noting, “I don’t want to walk like, ‘Look at me! I’m making a difference.”
“I just want to make a difference and shut my mouth about it. You shouldn’t be making any products. You shouldn’t be selling anything. It sucks to go to the dump some day. I know that.
‘But no one is going to stop wearing clothes. Nobody is going to stop doing things. So I do it the best way I can.
He went on to discuss his hopes for his generation, stating: ‘It was very exciting to talk to people who share my beliefs and are so smart, you know? They are my age and they are doing a lot. It made me feel very, very, very hopeful.
Billie has never been afraid to walk away from politics, previously urging her followers to avote for presidential candidate Joe Biden ‘as if our lives and the world depend on it’.
“You don’t need me to tell you that things are a mess: Donald Trump is destroying our country and everything we care about,” the “No Time to Die” singer said.
‘We need leaders who solve problems like climate change and COVID, not deny them. Leaders who will fight systemic racism and inequality.’
Hope for the future: The 21-year-old singer appeared on Vogue magazine’s first video cover alongside a selection of climate activists as she detailed her relationship with the planet.