Bianca Gascoigne discusses struggle with antenatal depression that left her worrying about ‘connecting’ with her newborn: ‘I didn’t want to be pregnant’

Bianca Gascoigne has discussed her struggle with antenatal depression, which left her wondering whether she would bond with her newborn baby.

The TV personality, 37, who welcomed her first child with partner Arron Wright in February 2023, opened up about her turbulent pregnancy.

Together with Sophie Kasaei on her Unmasked podcast this week, Bianca occasionally admitted that she “didn’t want to be pregnant” and felt like she was “hiding in a corner” because she worried about whether she would “bond” with her baby.

Speaking to host Sophie, she explained: ‘We didn’t try, it just happened straight away and quickly before I knew it.

‘But I had a terrible pregnancy. I was depressed. Antenatal depression, I didn’t want to be pregnant.’

The TV personality, who welcomed her first child with her partner Arron Wright in February 2023, opened up about her turbulent pregnancy

Bianca continued: ‘I just wanted to sit in a corner, I just wasn’t myself at all. You’re supposed to be so happy and say, “This is the best time of my life,” and that just makes everything worse.

“The whole time I just thought, ‘No, this is terrible, I hate it.’

‘I had a C-section and I said to my mother, “I don’t know anything about this, I don’t know if I’m going to get a bandage.”

“But then I came around and when I looked at my baby I thought, ‘she’s amazing,’ and I felt this protection.

“It was just the strangest thing and that’s how the depression went. I know it’s not like that for everyone, but for me it was such a difference because I was in such a bad place and then I thought, ‘I want another one.’

Despite feeling better, Bianca added: ‘My hormones are still bothering me now. I get irritated very quickly.’

In December, Bianca announced she was engaged to Arron after he popped the question during their lavish getaway in Thailand.

She showed off her incredible figure in a beige bikini as she showed fans her dazzling diamond ring.

Bianca joined Sophie Kasaei on her Unmasked podcast this week and admitted at times she ‘didn’t want to be pregnant’ and felt like she was ‘hiding in a corner’

In December, Bianca announced she was engaged to Arron after he popped the question during their lavish getaway in Thailand

Alongside the image, Bianca wrote: ‘Forever sounds beautiful’

Bianca wrote with the image: ‘Forever has a beautiful sound.’

Fans and famous friends rushed to the comments section to congratulate the couple.

Bianca got together with her partner, precious metals broker Arron, in August 2021, and the two officially announced they were together in December that year.

She revealed she was expecting her first child with Arron in August and posted a hilarious photo with her boyfriend recreating the poster for romantic comedy Knocked Up.

Bianca then announced in February that they had welcomed their first child, sharing a gallery of sweet snaps.

In the caption she wrote, “Our little Blake Sunshine.”

It comes after Bianca revealed her antenatal depression was so bad that at times she ‘wondered what on earth I was doing having a baby’.

The former Celebrity Big Brother star revealed she was so disconnected from her unborn baby that she felt ashamed of how she felt.

Bianca got together with her partner, precious metals broker Arron, in August 2021, and the two officially announced they were together in December of that year

Aaron popped the question during a luxury vacation to Thailand with their young daughter

Fans and famous friends rushed to the comments section to congratulate the couple

Posting throwback photos of herself in white underwear showing off her pregnancy bump, Bianca said she spent most of the nine months she was pregnant feeling depressed, overwhelmed and unsure about her future.

However, she added that things have changed so much for her since giving birth that she now wants a second child.

Glamor model Bianca wrote on her Instagram page: ‘My pregnancy truth…My beautiful Blake Sunshine made my world. It seems unbelievable that she has only been here for six weeks, I feel like she has been here forever…”

But the star then revealed the torment she went through before giving birth, adding: ‘To think that when this photo was taken I was in such a different head.

“I’m ashamed to say that at times during my pregnancy I wondered what the heck I was doing having a baby!” I felt so disconnected and down until the birth.

She said: ‘I want to reach out to all the expectant mothers out there who are going through something similar. You are not alone and things will change completely once you hold your beautiful bundle in your arms.’

Bianca said wishful thinking got her through the worst, explaining: ‘Please believe me, I got by hoping his wish would come true while still harboring serious doubts.

‘It really happens… to spend most of those nine months feeling depressed and overwhelmed, unsure of my future… I want another one!!???

Bianca announced in February that they had welcomed their first child by sharing a gallery of sweet snaps

“Yes, I’m actually thinking about taking a moment. Obviously not right now…. I’m enjoying this precious time with Blake Sunshine, but to think ahead about a second child???

“You could hit me with a Pampers!”

‘Thank you to the amazing @staceyclarkephoto for my special photos that I will cherish forever.’

In January, Bianca said that she ‘found everything a bit scary’ when she previously talked about her prenatal depression.