Sarah Herron shared an update on her grief following the devastating death of her and fiancé Dylan Brown’s baby Oliver on her Instagram account on Tuesday.
Following the passing of her son, shortly after she gave birth to him at 24 weeks on January 28, the influencer, who appeared on Sean Lowe’s season of The Bachelor in 2013, admitted that she has “barely managed to survive ” last month.
“I can’t tell if the last month has been a nightmare or if my pregnancy was all a dream,” she captioned a slideshow featuring her late baby and at home on the couch with her husband-to-be and their dog.
She continued: “And as each new day brings increments of space and healing… I’m devastated that we are regressing in a life direction that physically resembles the one we lived in before Oliver.”
The art director went on to tell her more than 321,000 followers that her body is “healing” while staying in maternity jeans, which she described as a “paradox of relief and pain at the same time.”
Devastating loss: Sarah Herron shared an update on her grief following the devastating death of her and fiancé Dylan Brown’s baby Oliver on her Instagram account Tuesday.
Grief: Following the passing of her son, shortly after she gave birth to him at 24 weeks, on January 28, the influencer, who appeared on Sean Lowe’s season of The Bachelor in 2013, admitted she has barely ” managed to survive” the past. month
‘Although it is still snowing, spring is on the horizon and I am not ready. The daylight minutes gained each night are an insulting reminder that life goes on, even though my grief still lingers in January. I don’t want the snow to melt or the trees to sprout. I want to spend the winter with Oliver forever,” the Colorado native explained.
Herron also noted that she is grateful that joy has “returned earlier” into her life than expected.
‘I didn’t believe people when they told me I would. And we’ve been laughing, a lot actually. We have returned to cooking and taking walks. and river [her dog], sweet Rio… you have been my lifeline. He is my witness,’ she said.
While focusing ‘exclusively’ on healing, the TV personality reflected that she rarely sees or talks to people while mourning her son.
“The good days are starting to outnumber the intolerable days, and the good days are even starting to show up,” Herron said.
While waiting for his urn to arrive, Herron confessed to finding “humor” in it sitting in a “white gift bag” on his nightstand as he feels his “spirit” around him.
‘People all over the WORLD feel his spirit. And even though his body is not here, I know this is not the end of Oliver Brown,” the reality star concluded. ‘Happy celestial one month birthday, baby. We love you and miss you forever. ❤️’
The comment section of her post, which received more than 36,251 likes in 10 hours, was flooded with well wishes, including a sweet note from Chris Harrison.
“I can’t tell if the last month has been a nightmare or if my pregnancy was all a dream,” she captioned a slideshow featuring her deceased baby and at home on the couch with her husband-to-be and their dog.
Healing: Herron also noted that she is grateful that joy has ‘come back earlier’ in her life than expected.
While focusing ‘exclusively’ on healing, the TV personality reflected that she rarely sees or talks to people while mourning her son.
“Sending you love sweet girl,” the former Bachelor/Bachelorette host wrote below the images.
Elyse Sherard, who was on season 23 of The Bachelor, penned a candid response to the emotional tribute, saying she couldn’t “begin to understand this loss or this pain.”
‘I am so proud of her courage in sharing her experience that so many mothers endure or are made to feel they have to endure in silence. Praying for grace with yourself as you try to navigate the unimaginable. ❤️❤️’ wrote the host of the Case of the Sunday Scaries podcast.
On February 1, Herron shared the heartbreaking news of Oliver’s passing while describing the joys and sorrows of his brief time with his son.
“The good days are starting to outnumber the intolerable days, and the good days are even starting to break through,” Herron said.
Coping: As he waits for his urn to arrive, Herron confessed to finding ‘humor’ in it sitting in a ‘white gift bag’ on his nightstand as he feels his ‘spirit’ all around him.
“There are no words for the magnitude of the loss and the pain we are experiencing,” he continued. “It is beautiful and at the same time tragic. He had my nose and his daddy’s mouth and long fingers,” she wrote.
“Oliver, our IVF miracle defied so many odds and fought through so many difficult milestones to be here, but the higher powers still had other plans for the three of us,” Herron wrote.
“Our time together was short, but we are grateful for the days we had with Oliver in my tummy.”
She continued: ‘He has taught us a lot about the integrity of life, love and death. Oliver filled our home and our hearts with much love and most importantly optimism. The stars aligned to create Baby Oliver with a deeper and more meaningful purpose than we will ever understand. His body was small, but his legacy will always be larger than life for us.’
He made it clear that little Oliver was a constant companion on their adventures during their time together.
‘Oliver swam with sea turtles, kept me company while I was recovering from a broken knee and loved his father’s cooking. Most of all, Oliver loved his morning routine of honestly laying down with his brother Rio on my lap,” he wrote, referring to the family dog.
Sarah, who underwent IVF treatments to help her conceive Oliver, announced that she and Dylan, whom she got engaged to in May 2021, are expecting their first child together in September 2022.
She didn’t shy away from sharing the details of her treatments with her fans on social media, and that candor was the reason she was willing to share the news of her pregnancy relatively early, rather than wait.
“I know many families prefer to keep the pregnancy private until after the first trimester, but I have shared the entire fertility process from day one,” she said. us weekly. ‘One of the blessings of IVF is the support I have gained by being transparent about this process.’
Sorrowful Month: On February 1, Herron shared the heartbreaking news of Oliver’s passing while describing the joys and sorrows of his brief time with his son.
Miracle Baby: Sarah, who underwent IVF treatments to help her conceive Oliver, has announced that she and Dylan, whom she got engaged to in May 2021, are expecting their first child together in September 2022
“I know many families prefer to keep the pregnancy private until after the first trimester, but I’ve shared the entire fertility process from day one,” she told Us Weekly. ‘One of the blessings of IVF is the support I have gained by being transparent about this process’