Amy Winehouse’s heartbreaking private teenage journals are released by her parents: Late singer wrote she was ‘pleased to be different’ and questioned if ‘love was ever going to cross her path’

Amy Winehouse’s heartbreaking private teen diaries are released by her parents: The late singer wrote she was “happy to be different” and wondered if “love would ever cross her path”

Amy Winehouse’s parents Mitch and Janis have released excerpts from her private diaries from when she was a teenager in honor of the late singer’s 40th birthday.

And the sweet musings provide insight into her thoughts and feelings as she delights in being “different” from everyone else.

She also questions whether or not “love will cross her path” and talks about the kind of partner she dreams of finding.

Amy sadly died on the afternoon of Saturday 23rd July 2011 at her flat in Camden from alcohol poisoning after binge drinking following a period of abstinence.

Her life was plagued by drug and alcohol abuse and she suffered a long battle with bulimia.

Amy Winehouse’s heartbreaking private teen diaries are released by her parents: The late singer wrote she was “happy to be different” and wondered if “love would ever cross her path” in sweet notations (pictured center, in 2008)

While hailed as the voice of a generation, Amy’s notes prove she was aware of standing out from the crowd.

In excerpts released by The Telegraph, Amy wrote: ‘I’m glad I’m different. It’s not that I want to be like everyone else. I like to have my own individual style. I like to be loud and insult people. It’s the way I am.’

And she thinks about whether she will find love and what exactly she is looking for.

She added, “Sometimes I think, I wonder if there’s anyone, some guy, as crazy as me? A nice guy with dark hair, who wears glasses for reading and is a real Indie kid? Piercings optional, Scottish or Irish accent preferred!

“And why do all my brother’s friends fit this description, when I’m far too young to do anything about it?

“Will love ever come my way or am I destined to date metalheads or gorgeous guys with no BRAIN.” (One thing I despise)’

Amy also wrote about how she struggled with her feelings.

She said, “I hate my temper. Sometimes it eats me up so much that I get physically violent with those I love. No matter how many times I say I’m sorry, it’s something they can never forget.”

Amy’s parents have said they went through all of her work after her death and “found it hard to find much torment or distress in her writings,” but admitted they “can’t say we really understand her either.”

Amy famously married Blake Fielder-Civil, whom she met in a pub in 2005 before getting married in Miami in 2007.

It was well documented that they were heavily involved in drug and alcohol abuse and divorced after two years of a tempestuous six-year on-off relationship.

Six months into their marriage, Blake was jailed for his part in an attack on a bar owner, leading to Amy’s famous Grammy Awards tribute to “my Blake, incarcerated.”

He ended up in prison in the summer of 2008 after being convicted of perverting the course of justice and intentionally causing grievous bodily harm in an attack on a bar owner.

During that time, Amy entered rehab, got a boyfriend, and turned her back on hard drugs.

Blake filed for divorce from the singer shortly after his release and while she tried to get back with him, the divorce went through.

She later dated film director Reg Traviss.

Blake was in prison serving a 32-month sentence for armed robbery when he discovered Amy had died in 2011.