Made In Chelsea’s Cheska Hull admits she ‘lost her life’ on the show

Former Made In Chelsea star Cheska Hull says she ‘lost her life’ while starring in the reality show.

The reality star turned PR, 37, rose to fame on the E4 show in 2011 and was part of the original cast alongside Ollie Locke and Binky Felstead before leaving shocked in 2014.

Reflecting on her time on the series, Cheska recalls struggling with fame, loneliness, and trolling during her three-year stint, talking about how she “couldn’t go anywhere without people saying horrible things.”

While seemingly enjoying a fun and A-list lifestyle amongst the posh Chelsea set, in reality life in the capital left Cheska “depressed and struggling”, with the star forced to leave London for the sake of her mental health.

In a new interview with Closer magazineCheska talks about her time on the show where she felt “alone” and became “typecast,” describing how she is now happier than ever in her blended family.

Fame: The reality star turned PR, 37, rose to fame on the E4 show in 2011 and was part of the original cast alongside the likes of Ollie Locke and Binky Felstead before leaving shocked in 2014

Tough: Reflecting on her time on the show, Cheska (L) recalls struggling with fame, loneliness and trolling during her three-year stint, sharing how she “couldn’t go anywhere without people saying horrible things”

She said of her time on the show, “I had lost my life. I couldn’t go anywhere without people saying horrible things. It was all-encompassing, but no one was there to talk about it. I just felt very alone.

“I had a long-term boyfriend while I was on Made In Chelsea, but they always said I was single. You play a part, even if it is not written. They will characterize you: Binky really is the girl next door. Ollie is the gay best friend. I was kind of the single Bridget Jones, even though I wasn’t single. It has to be real, but then you can’t show your real sides.’

The former TV star further revealed that when she and her friends first started on the show, they “had no idea what we were doing,” with Cheska even having to set up Binky on social media after the first episode.

While living happily in Devon with son Charlie, five, boyfriend Damian Cook and his two teenage daughters, life wasn’t always so idyllic for Cheska when she lived in her native London.

Speaking candidly, Cheska shared how she was gripped by depression and even struggled to get out of bed, revealing that she had no choice but to say goodbye to London to save herself.

She said: “Leaving London was something I knew I had to do, deep down. I was very depressed and struggling. Everything became difficult – getting out of bed in the morning, saying yes to social obligations, being with friends. I knew I had to leave to get my sanity back on track – and be myself again.”

She added that while starting her life over was “really hard to do” and left her with a sense of failure, in retrospect she is glad she took the plunge and is “proud” of herself for doing so .

Today, the now brunette beauty is happier than ever, having recently bought a house with Damian, whom she met at school last year.

Struggle: While seemingly enjoying a fun and A-list lifestyle amongst the posh Chelsea set, living in the capital left Cheska ‘depressed and struggling’, with the star forced to leave London for the sake of her mental health

Difficult period: Cheska explains: ‘It was all-encompassing, but there was no one to talk about it. I just felt very alone” (pictured with friend Damian Cook)

Onset: The former TV star went on to reveal that when she and her friends first started on the show, they “had no idea what we were doing,” with Cheska even having to set up Binky on social media after the first episode ( photo together in 2011)

New life: Gone from a single mom to a household full of love and kids, Cheska joked they’re like the “Von Trapp family,” before insisting she’s “never been happier”

Of her low-key coastal lifestyle, Cheska says her life is “so different” from her past, but equally “amazing.”

And she credits her move south to her family, noting that she “probably wouldn’t have my son today” if she hadn’t left.

Cheska has gone from a single mother to a household full of love and children. She joked that they’re like the “Von Trapp family,” before insisting she’s “never been happier.”