Cara Delevingne reveals she’s wanted children since the age of 16

Cara Delevingne wants to ‘freeze her eggs’ to make her dream of becoming a mother come true, a prospect she admits to having fostered since she was 16 years old.

Delevingne has embarked on a positive new chapter after images emerged in 2022 of the model and actress in a disheveled and erratic state at California’s Van Nuys airport.

Having checked into a residential rehab center to combat his long-term substance and alcohol abuse, issues he admits have been exacerbated by the COVID-19 pandemic, the British star is now looking towards one of his long-term goals.

In a long-range interview with FashionDelevingne, 30, says she has harbored dreams of raising children since her teens, a turbulent period during which her own mother, a socialite and former Selfridges personal shopper, Pandora, was battling heroin addiction.

“I’ve wanted a child since I was 16. I want babies so bad,” she explained. “Back then I wouldn’t have been ready, of course, I just wanted to replace the need to take care of my mother with a child of my own.”

Let’s talk: The model and actress has discussed her dreams of motherhood in a wide-ranging new interview with Vogue

Pandora is now drug free and committed to recovery, a path her daughter is currently walking after years of periodic substance abuse that began in her rebellious teens.

She said: ‘Sure I was happy as a child, but I think when I got older, I looked back. [at her mother’s addiction] And I realized, that’s not normal. And then, when I was a teenager, it all fell apart.

‘That’s also when I started drinking and partying. There was this need to escape and change my reality when big questions assailed me: What am I doing here? Who am I trying to be?

Delevingne, who identifies as bisexual and pansexual, admits that her personal struggles have also extended to being completely transparent about her own sexuality.

His reluctance to discuss these issues was evident in Channel 4’s recent six-part series Planet Sex, a no-holds-barred exploration of gender, sexuality and desire.

Moving Forward: Delevingne has embarked on a positive new chapter after images emerged of the model and actress in a disheveled and erratic state at California’s Van Nuys airport in 2022.

“I still have a hard time being open, really open, about how much I love women,” Delevingne, who served as host and executive producer, admitted during its first episode.

Reflecting on her decision to go on the show, she told Vogue: “It was very personal and I didn’t really realize how personal it would be.” I only really learned to show emotions when I was acting because I didn’t feel worthy enough to feel those things myself.

With Planet Sex I was so uncomfortable in front of the camera at first because I was like, Oh, God, I have to be myself.

Delevingne previously spoke about her upbringing at Harper’s Bazaar UK, explaining that it was “very stressful” because there was “quite a bit of chaos”.

‘Everyone has something they go through with their family. I feel like my life was very stressful because there was quite a bit of chaos, not being sure if people were okay or not,” she told the outlet.

The model recalled finding her school years difficult as she suffered from a developmental disorder called dyspraxia.

She also developed severe anxiety and depression at age 15, which led her to engage in self-harm.

“I was suddenly hit by a massive wave of depression, anxiety and self-hatred, where the feelings were so painful that I would bang my head against a tree to try and knock myself out,” she told Vogue.

‘I never cut [myself], but it scratched me to the point of bleeding. I just wanted to dematerialize and have someone sweep me off.

Delevingne, who later came out as pansexual in 2020, has admitted that she struggled with her sexuality as a child, especially as she felt she had no LGBTQ+ idols to look up to, which contributed to her mental health issues.

“I think I would have hated myself less, I wouldn’t have been so ashamed if I had someone,” she added to Harper’s Bazaar.

“The only thing that makes me happy about growing up queer and fighting it and hiding it is that it gives me a lot of fire and motivation to try to make people’s lives easier in some way by talking about it.”

Vogue’s April 2023 issue will be available on newsstands nationwide on March 21.

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