Jason Watkins admits it was ‘very hard to make’ a documentary about his daughter’s death
Jason Watkins has confessed that it was “very difficult to make” a new documentary about the death of his daughter Maude.
The 60-year-old actor has been working on Jason & Clara: In Memory of Maudie, with his wife Clara Francis, in which the couple will offer support to other bereaved families.
It was in 2011 when Maude, the two-year-old daughter of Jason and his wife, Clara Francis, tragically died of sepsis.
‘It’s never worse than feeling like your child never existed’: Jason Watkins admitted it was ‘very difficult to make’ a documentary about the death of his daughter Maude, two, from sepsis
Jason found Maude, suffering from the flu, dead in her bed on New Year’s Day morning. Despite two visits to the hospital, her flu symptoms masked sepsis and she went undiagnosed.
The Crown star said during an appearance on This Morning on Wednesday: “I spoke to Sarah Parish and she lost her own child, so it’s all about spreading sepsis awareness, this documentary.”
‘…about letting people know that if you’ve lost a child, always bring it up. It’s never worse than feeling like your child never existed. It’s sharing our story: it was very difficult to do. The hope is that people have an idea.
“It is to tell other families that there is help, talking about it can help you and make you feel less alone because it is a very lonely road.”
Tragic: The actor, 60, has been working on Jason & Clara: In Memory of Maudie, with his wife Clara Francis, in which the couple will offer support to other bereaved families.
He also attended the daytime show to promote Channel 5’s latest psychological drama The Catch.
In The Catch, based on the best-selling novel by The Holiday author TM Logan, Jason taps into the raw grief of losing his own daughter to play grieving father Ed in Channel 5’s tense four-part drama airing on Wednesday night.
He said: ‘It’s a family drama that turns into a psychological drama. They have lost a son in the past, for whom Ed feels partly responsible and is fighting to keep his family together.
‘This [one of the hardest things in the world and this is a particular – our family in the show has lost a child, myself and Clara we lost our daughter 10 years ago.
Opening up: The Crown star said during a Wednesday appearance on This Morning: ‘I spoke to Sarah Parish and she’s lost her own child, so it is about spreading awareness of sepsis’
Coming soon: He also went on the daytime show to promote Channel 5’s latest psychological drama, The Catch
‘You think why on earth… but it is such a good script, it comes from a real sense of family, so seems to be a good chance to explore with an audience what it’s like to lose a child. Some scenes were really, really difficult.’
‘There’s you at one end of the tightrope and the actor at the other – it depends on how much you give. If you give a lot of yourself and look after yourself, I prepared myself if I knew a day was going to be hard.’
Sepsis, known as the ‘silent killer’, strikes when an infection such as blood poisoning sparks a violent immune response in which the body attacks its own organs.
If caught early enough, it’s easily treated with intravenous antibiotics and fluids, but these must be given as soon as sepsis is suspected – it strikes with frightening speed and, for every hour of delay, a patient’s chance of dying increases 8 per cent.
So sad: In 2010 a persistent cough prompted two consecutive visits to a hospital A&E, where Maude was initially diagnosed with croup but two week later died from sepsis
During the filming of his documentary, Jason visited an A&E department of a hospital, with the Line Of Duty star remarking on the ‘difficulties’ of sepsis in children was ‘sadly’ down to funds.
He said that while the skills were there in the NHS, the government needed to ‘step up’ an plough more money into the places it’s really ‘needed’.
Earlier this month, the star and wife Clara marked 12 years since Maude’s death, with Jason also sharing a heartfelt tribute to his girl on Twitter.
Detailing how they marked the occasion, he told the publication: ‘Clara and I both get quite emotional on that day and in the lead-up to the anniversary. We just walk to her bench as a family, and with friends, then everyone comes back to our house. It’s a nice thing to do.’
In an interview in 2020, Jason revealed he was ‘angry for a long time’ at fate for taking the child he shared with his wife Clara Francis.
Devastating: ‘Clara and I both get quite emotional on that day and in the lead-up to the anniversary. We just walk to her bench as a family’ (pictured 2019)
Speaking to The Sunday Times Magazine, he said: ‘Clara and I felt cheated.’
He described the pattern of his grief changing over time, from an acute pain to a ‘heart-shaped feeling that you carry around for ever.’
Jason and Clara – who already had an older daughter Bessie – decided to try for another child after Maude’s death.
He added: ‘Life was not going to rob us of our happiness. And Gilbert has brought us so much happiness.’
If you need further support or information about bereavement and grief, mental health charity Mind can be contacted via 0300 123 3393.
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