Tulisa reveals she urged ITV to ‘take her off camera’ in the days after her I’m A Celebrity departure because she was having a ‘breakdown’

Tulisa Contostavlos has revealed she urged ITV to take her ‘off camera’ in the days after her departure from I’m A Celebrity because she had a ‘breakdown’.

The N-Dubz singer, 36, left Australia within days of being voted out of the Jungle, having deleted all traces of her appearance on the ITV show from her Instagram.

Tulisa left fans wondering why she suddenly left Australia and chose not to appear on the Coming Out show with her campmates.

She later took to her Instagram to address the speculation surrounding her sudden departure, saying she had become “overwhelmed” by the whole thing.

In part two by Paul C Brunson We need to talk podcastTulisa opened up about how she really felt in the hours after she was voted off the show.

She said:When I came out, I started crying when I had the first moment to myself.

“And the first thing I did when I talked to my team was, ‘What’s going on?’

“And I said, ‘Please don’t put me on camera again. I have to leave now, too much. I’m really proud of myself, but I pushed myself too far too soon, I have to go home.”

She added: ‘Do you want me to be there on principle? Now when do I have a breakdown? No, I have to go home and process this.

“I think I’m blessed in a way to be that person who says if my mind isn’t healthy, I’m going to take care of myself. I’m not going to push myself beyond boundaries. I have to take care of myself, I have to protect myself.”

Finally revealing why she chose to archive all her I’m A Celebrity photos to her Instagram when she came out of the jungle, Tulisa said: ‘I deleted everything.

‘I came out and that same night I cried as if I wasn’t going to be on camera again.

“I was scrolling through my socials and it was just me and I was in flip-out mode. I just wanted it all to be gone and to go home and process things.

‘I wouldn’t say I’ve processed it all. I’m at about 70 percent now. If I want to be in the public eye, I have to do things that are a little more difficult, things like this [the podcast]. Just keep it 100% real.

“If I can be in the public eye and I am, then I can do it.”

In part one of Paul’s podcast, Tulisa opened up about the struggles she faced with her mental health, both in the jungle and after leaving, with the star admitting she struggled to feel happy among the ‘happy campers’ mingling while she was ‘crying’. in her hotel room’.

Tulisa also opened up about the moment she almost quit the show, leaving the singer in tears and struggling to breathe during a harrowing anxiety attack that wasn’t seen on screen.

Tulisa explained the battles she faced that viewers were unaware of: “Some things you didn’t see: I had night terrors for the first four days. I woke up from my sleep and had anxiety attacks.

‘Not everyone knows those parts, so it didn’t go smoothly for me at all, but I have a great poker face.

‘I can really turn it on, especially when I face adversity. The last thing I wanted was to go in there and be the hot mess. So if anything, I’ll be the greatest soldier there is.

“So as soon as I have a task and I get on a plane and jump out, I look like a warrior because that’s what I do. I might sit under the sleeping bag and cry, that’s part of who I am.’

Opening up about a particular attack that almost forced her to leave the show early, Tulisa continued, “I mean, I did cry on VT at one point, but I definitely had an anxiety attack off camera.

‘I went into the smoking area to do it and even then I didn’t want them to know I was having an anxiety attack, so I tried to lower my heart rate, literally through my nose.

“I was like, ‘Okay, get your heart rate down. Get your heart rate down.’ I wanted to leave that day. I thought, ‘I can’t do this, but that’s not what I came for.

“I came here to stick it out and do what I have to do.” And there were a lot of great moments, really joyful moments, thanks to the people. The people created those moments.”

Since becoming the third to be evicted from the jungle and then returned to Britain, Tulisa had opened up about how she felt “introvert overload” when she returned to reality, admitting to hyperventilating and crying.

Tulisa is understandably wary of being in the public eye as she has been involved in several scandals, including a drug sting by The Sun’s infamous Fake Sheikh.

During her conversation with Paul, she elaborated on how her introversion affected her in camp, and how it affected her time after leaving during the period when expelled campmates spend time with and join the loved ones of other campmates. greets the recently evicted stars at their luxurious Gold Coast hotel.

Tulisa explained: ‘I’m a huge introvert. I really got a little overwhelmed there, so I was probably the least in the camp. I would remove myself and go for a walk or hide in the dunny. I spent 90% of my time alone.

‘Because of the agoraphobia and being alone for so long, I was super overwhelmed by so many people. They could see that, and they really understood it. They joked like, “She went to the Airbnb. She’s coming back.”

“When I came out, I think the biggest thing that put me over the edge was the introvert overload. I had pushed myself to do this and I was ready to overcome all fears and be in the spotlight, but constantly being watched, for so many hours a day, nowhere to hide, nowhere to run, and I felt so exposed. Everyone can see me, and also the underlying fear – probably irrational – of being watched.”

She further said that the feeling of being constantly watched reminded her that Mazher Mahmood, also known as the Fake Sheik, a then journalist for the Sun on Sunday, had misled her into giving him a contact from he bought £800 worth of cocaine.

She noted that although everyone else at the hotel was “happy campers,” her past experiences weighed heavily on her and she found it difficult to interact with others and pretend that she was doing well.

She said: ‘I did what I signed up for, but I came out, I processed it, I felt the way I felt. There are 11 other very happy campers there who are very happy to be there, happy to have the holiday and doing it all with energy and with a smile, and you have someone who is crying in his hotel room.

“In the current times we live in, you think, ‘Do you want me to be there on principle? What if I have a breakdown now?

‘I need to go home and process this. If other people don’t have the same experience as me, they haven’t had the same experiences in the past and they’re all current people doing radio or being on television. This is the norm for them.’ For me this was a psychological experiment, for myself.’